Here we go again. Unfortunately, our 11 excellent quality embryos were not our precious baby. For over a year we have been partaking in FET (Frozen Embryo Transfers), with no luck. It appears on top of my diminished ovarian reserve, we are also dealing with auto immune issues. My body is basically fighting of the embryos. Hearing this makes my heart ache. It is my own body keeping us from our dream…..
When the last embryos failed to implant, we were forced with a decision – Try another full IVF or go straight to adoption. Discussing the options with our doctor, whom I am extremely fond of, we have decided to attempt another cycle, implementing some additional medications in an effort to deal with the autoimmune issue more aggressively. I have been on some medication, Plaquenil, for almost 2 months in an effort to control my immune system. We will also be trying another IVIG as part of the protocol. I am optimistic, yet nervous. The hope keeps me going, but I don’t know how many more blows I can take. Every negative result rips away a piece of my heart.
It is hard for others to understand our situation and their quick judgement of our situation can be frustrating. What I have learned in this 3+ year journey is that the every couple will approach their situation differently, which is what they should do. Every couple’s situation is unique to them. My advice to anyone going through this is stay strong for each other, be honest with your feelings, and don’t let anyone make the decision for you. You are stronger than you think you are!